laundry done. packed and ready. i've been asked if i'm excited to travel, and i am....it's just a lot of work.
my new obsession is RuPauls Drag Race. it's a great reality competition show that houses love and encouragement, which i feel like others are lacking. in the last episode of the first season Ru goes of on a rant when a contestant says that they felt like they weren't appreciated and didn't receive enough praise. Ru goes on to talk about how one learns that when someone has something negative to say about you it actually has nothing to do with you and everything to do with them.....she has many quotable things to say but one that stuck with me was that you have to walk through the fire yourself and experience your life and constantly be processing what is happening around you. the thing that is happening to you(with it's judgements and supposed point values) is not as important as how it equates to your journey.
it's thoughts like these that i have been exploring recently. the idea of code is prominent also. this thing that you are doing or saying or being is just a piece of the puzzle that has to be completed so that you can move on to some other unknown task. maybe this is where beauty lives?
thoughts welcome.
i leave for France tomorrow. my flight leaves at 1 p.m. and i land in Paris at 8 the following morning.
i have only been to France once.....well i drove through it.....well i didn't, a bus driver did.
we(my family and i) took a vacation to Italy i believe(perhaps Menorca) and we had to drive part of the way on a bus. i remember waking up in the night on the bus and looking outside and seeing the miniature version of the Statue of Liberty lit up in the distance.
memorys.constantly changing.
i'm looking forward to working. interested to see how it shapes out.
looking forward.
collected memory & experience has been so prominent in my thoughts lately..... & then i come back to the experience of the present. that's where i think the beauty lies..... it's there in memory & dreams too, but i guess it depends on what we chose to define/ experience/ believe is "real".
ReplyDeletei like her quote too, it reminds me of perspective, how you shape the external experiences in your life.... how you create your story, it's not the experiences, in all their differences, it's how you piece them all together to create your story.
have fun in france, bon chance! (& merde! too)
i like your bloggy blog!
i've never seen the show. we don't have cable. but i had a dream once and in it a voice whispered urgently over and over, "who is nina flowers?! who is nina flowers?!" and i awoke repeating it to myself. later i found out nina flowers was a contestant on the show. odd, no?
ReplyDeletehave a nice time in france. i'm eager to read your explorations.